Kinda long.....
So, as you have noticed I have been gone for a while, many reasons why I have been gone. This is me trying to explain. First of all sorry I didn’t make my other posts sooner, I kind of forgot about making them. Anyways, I DO like playing with everyone, I enjoy the company we keep. As we all have, just got tired with WoW, that’s a reason why I was gone. I just got bored with the game, partly because I wasn’t having much fun anymore. Our raid times made me rush home from work, just to be there on time, which stopped me from doing anything after work, heck I barely had time to make dinner , sometimes none. Don’t get me wrong raiding can be
fun, but can be a pain if u have to rush jus to get there.
Next, another reason I have been gone is because I’m trying to be on the computer
less and getting out more. Been here for quite awhile, when I moved I left all my friends 3hrs away. So I’m trying to meet new people at work and out in the world. Let me try to explain this, its very hard for me to get out and meet people. I tend to put myself in a bubble and stay secluded. That’s just how I am, been trying to fix that. Sometimes I can get out of it, then there are days where I just go back to that because I feel safe there. Part of that is opening up to people, and the defensive attitude I tend to get. If I feel threatened I put up that front and hide myself from the world.
Reason why I’m like that you may ask. Well…. That’s very personal, but part of it needs said to understand why I act the way I do sometimes. Long story short, all throughout school, since grade school and high school, pretty much every day was verbally harassed. So I learned to shield myself from that and push people back. Also with that the defensive shield came with it. Pretty much with all that, made growing up hell. Long story short that kinda explains things in a nutshell.
Onward on my little thing here, also trying to concentrate on working, working on a contractor where I work now, and got offered a full time job there. So trying to keep up the hard work there to ensure I get it. I’m there for 8hrs of the day on the phone on the computer. So, that’s a reason why I come home and just relax and try to stay off the computer. For a while there my whole day was sleeping and being on the computer the rest of the time. Didn’t like that part of my routine.
And I know I haven’t been there, and for that I am sorry. I know we need people to be there all the time for the 25mans. And I know I used to be horrible at tanking, then I got better and better. I really didn’t mean to be this gone, and I really can’t give a for sure time when you can count on me fully again. I really wish I could, its just I need to get things fixed IRL. The time off I have enjoyed, and coming back keeps getting harder and harder. I want to come back, but at this time I think the time off is still in my best interest. Hopefully my return will be in the near future. So Hope this explained what is going on, never been the best with words.
/salute
