Ok, let me explain why I left SancTuarY.
I love the community, and I love everything about the guild. The reason I left was for my own doing. I said many things to the Rebels, and to some of the people of SancTuarY that were VERY hurtful, and they are things I wish I never said in the first place. After having long talks with these people I insulted, I realized I did not deserve to be in SancTuarY. Now, yes, I realize we spoke for a while about me rejoining SancTuarY, Astrus. And I thought I was ready. However, after spending so much time in SILVR's TeamSpeak flapping my yap and saying whatever came to mind, with nobody caring, I found that coming to the Rebel vent where the players are there to be serious and have a good time, it wasn't the smartest move I have made. I started doing things I did in SILVR that many people in SancTuarY and the Rebellion did not appreciate. I just never thought about it. It was my own stupidity. I should have been more mindful of the situation, and watched my language.
Now with guilds such as R-E-F...
I said many things about them because they flamed me as an Ex-SILVR member, and they flamed my in-game and real life friends, and I couldn't sit idly by and watch. As soon as someone flames me, it's a war. Granted I was in SancTuarY during some of the flame fests, and that was another stupid mistake I made. The biggest thing I wanted to do after realizing my mistake was to leave SancTuarY, so that no problems evolved between REF and SancTuarY, or with SancTuarY and the Rebellion. I also accidentally said something to one of my best friend's in-game, and nearly lost his friendship... Namdorst', If you are reading this, again I am sorry for what I have said to you, and I hope we can still be friends. I also said some things to Iktia, without knowing the harmful effect they could have. The things I said to him were mentioned all the time by members of SILVR, so I never stopped to think before I said what I did, and that was the last straw. After realizing yet another mistake I have made, I nearly started to break down, and was almost brought to tears.
Now, why should I be part of an awesome community such as SancTuarY, when after serving time with SILVR, I flapped my yap, without understanding my consequences? The last thing SancTuarY should have is someone who flames their own guildmates, and others of the Rebel cause. I know I talk about SILVR a lot, but that is the root of my choice of vocabulary in-game.
Now, SancTuarY, I understand many of you probably hate me, and I understand that, after being told by a few inside sources. I know this is an issue that cannot be put behind ourselves, and I know now everything I said was wrong. I did not want to leave SancTuarY, but after what I said, I had no choice.
I hope to see all of you in-game, and I honestly hope to gain everyone's trust back for what I said or did to them to hurt them. It will be a long time for that to happen, but I deserve every minute of it.
Thank you for your time, and I hope you all have a great day.
Sincerely,
Grant "Syke DarkSyth" Corby
PS: Please keep this message public, so that others do not make the same mistakes I made. Thank you.